M.J. Moore's Faith & Family

What motivates you?

Motivation can be extremely hard for me to find. Suffering from PTSD can make you feel like you have chains that are heavy on your shoulders, and they are weighing you down. Yeah, there’s stuff to be done, but you just don’t have the strength to get up and do it.

So what gets me motivated to get up and finally take care of my responsibilities? Well, let’s just say it’s not exactly a what it’s a who. The reason behind it being a who instead of a what is because without them helping, encouraging, and simply being there. Goodness. I’d hate to see what my house would look like.

So my motivation is from my husband. We’ve been married coming up on two years at the end of September. We’ve been together for three. We both have chronic diseases and are on disability.

My husband has blood cancer, and I have PTSD and Functional Nuerological Disorder, with my poems and other blog entries on my website, you will hear me talk about living with these conditions. But we help and motivate one another.

There have been times when I have been in a wheelchair, using a walker or a cane. There was even once when I was on life support, and I couldn’t move out of bed. The nurses wouldn’t get me up. They just used a bed pan on me and left.

But when my husband was able to arrive back, he wasn’t able to because of an ice storm for a couple of days. He helped me get up and move my legs. There was supposed to be physical therapy and home health coming to our house when I got up, but for some reason, that never happened. Which was odd because it was prescribed, and we never heard anything.

But my husband worked with me every day.

During house cleaning, because I get tired easily due to my muscles not wanting to work, he gets up and helps me clean.

So, my husband is my motivation in an extreme way. I know I am also his. We’ve been through a lot together. Our marriage is strong because of everything we’ve been through. It is an extreme blessing from God.

God Bless.

M.J. Moore